Archive for May 2nd, 2007


Now I realized the bless of being able to write, it has been the way to express what can’t be said. It is really harsh to keep things locked up inside, without being able to let them out in any sort.
There are many things that I am not really comfortable with but don’t want to complain about, got tired of complaining and winning. Besides I just feel that things are going to get better and I trust my heart.
About conversations, I used to think that I am a good listener but in fact I no longer am. Especially when it comes to the people who just talk for the sake of talking not because they have something to say or express how they feel. As if they only work on filling the silence. I don’t like that.
I appreciate silence and I appreciate sincere and deep words, gestures and whispers.
If you are a listener, you can listen to the eyes, hear and comprehend body language, communicate and connect with said and unsaid words.
Ironically I avoid certain conversations, work on making them shorter if I couldn’t escape ‘em, turn off my phone while running after some other conversations and talks that I can not imagine what they are going to be.
It’s not out of curiosity, is it? I am not curious by nature.
May be it’s an old fancy, an attachment to the past that I loved or a better future that I am wishing to have.
What concerns me is I don’t want to burden anyone with these feelings I carry and I don’t want to mislead myself with them either.
I am not patient anymore and the waiting game is straining. But it’s believe it or not so enjoyable when compared with having nothing to look up to and wait for.


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