Fear

What do you fear the most?
My primary fear would be judgment day
Secondary fears are thunders and lightening, Earthquakes, to be left alone, to have any of my family sick, needles and injections and dogs 😀

Can you tell if it’s fear or phobia ?

I guess one can tell from it’s intensity, I can deal with my fears and I can even show am not afraid of them. So I guess the key is CONTROL; see if they are controlling you or you have control over them.

Here is a phobia list:

Acrophobia, Altophobia — fear of heights.
Agoraphobia — fear of a place or event where escape is impossible or when help is unavailable.
Algophobia — fear of pain.
Androphobia — fear of males.
Aquaphobia, Hydrophobia — fear of water
Arachnaphobia – fear of spiders
Astraphobia, Astrapophobia, Brontophobia, Keraunophobia — fear of thunder, lightning and storms; especially common in young children.
Autophobia — fear of being alone.
Aviophobia, Aviatophobia — fear of flying.
Bacillophobia, Bacteriophobia, Microbiophobia — fear of microbes and bacteria.
Cibophobia, Sitophobia — aversion to food, synonymous to Anorexia nervosa.
Claustrophobia — fear of confined spaces.
Coulrophobia — fear of clowns (not restricted to evil clowns).
Dental phobia, Dentophobia, Odontophobia — fear of dentists and dental procedures.
Dysmorphophobia, or body dysmorphic disorder — a phobic obsession with a real or imaginary body defect.
Emetophobia — fear of vomiting.
Ergasiophobia, Ergophobia — fear of work or functioning, or a surgeon’s fear of operating.
Erotophobia — fear of sexual love or sexual questions.
Erythrophobia — pathological blushing.
Genophobia, Coitophobia — fear of sexual intercourse.
Glossophobia — fear of speaking in public or of trying to speak.
Gymnophobia — fear of nudity.
Heliophobia — fear of sunlight.
Hemophobia, Haemophobia — fear of blood.
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia — fear of the number 666.
Hoplophobia — fear of firearms (guns).
Lalophobia, Laliophobia — fear of speaking.
Mysophobia — fear of germs, contamination or dirt.
Necrophobia — fear of death, the dead.
Neophobia, Cainophobia, Cainotophobia, Cenophobia, Centophobia, Kainolophobia, Kainophobia — fear of newness, novelty.
Nosophobia — fear of contracting a disease
Nyctophobia, Achluophobia, Lygophobia, Scotophobia — fear of darkness.
Osmophobia, Olfactophobia — fear of smells.
Paraskavedekatriaphobia, Paraskevidekatriaphobia, Friggatriskaidekaphobia — fear of Friday the 13th.
Panphobia — fear of everything or constantly afraid without knowing what is causing it
Phonophobia — fear of loud sounds.
Pyrophobia — fear of fire.
Radiophobia — fear of radioactivity or X-rays.
Sociophobia — fear/dislike of society or people in general (see also “sociopath”).
Taphophobia — fear of the grave, or fear of being placed in a grave while still alive.
Technophobia — fear of technology (see also Luddite).
Tetraphobia – fear of the number 4.
Tokophobia — fear of childbirth.
Triskaidekaphobia, Terdekaphobia — fear of the number 13.
Trypanophobia, Aichmophobia, Belonephobia, Enetophobia — fear of needles, injections or of pointed objects.
Xenophobia — fear of strangers, foreigners, or aliens.

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In love with the fall

Time passes like wind in the fall sweeping the present times turning them into dry brownish memories in appearance yet so colorfully felt.
One should envy the trees for shedding their leaves in such a grace and having the faith that the spring will come once more.

I do love the fall, I always remember my school and college … I don’t know why I remember the old times rather than the recent ones.
It has been nine years since I graduated from college and I still remember a lot of things as they were yesterday. Of course I still remember (M) and I always wonder what his life is like now.
More than a month ago, I was stuck in traffic and the radio was on, they played Fayrouz’s song “keefak enta”.. that was hillarious. I just kept singing and laughing, I lost track of time and everything till I found myself near my home as if I had a black out.

I can’t help not thinking about the past nine years and I am trying to figure out why there were insignificant to me. I will be brave and say they were empty, they lacked anything that could make any difference … a rewarding job, feelings or affection, … .
One thing made these years worth while ..family and the few wonderful friends I have, may god keep them for me.

I had an urge the past days to go to the college and get my certificate (I am still having the temporary one). But still I don’t have the courage to go there alone. I don’t kow what I am afraid of… looking around and find everything different? realizing that the old times are over? … I already know that but I don’t want to face it. it’s just like my fear to have a look at the old photos.

Speaking of fears, I have to overcome my fear of change and become more open to new things and new people. I drive people away by my insecurities although the last thing I would want is to lose them.

Back to the present time, Ramadan has flew .. I did enjoy it but I feel I didn’t exploit it well, there was so much more to do. I didn’t feel the spiritual mood like last years .
Went to Ma3had el 2awram a couple of times, one was for packing and the other was a little bit of packing as well and visiting the children.
I took the last week of ramdan off so I can stay late for the prayers and one more reason to avoid the nerve wrecking traffic… I once snapped at a taxi driver near my home and one of the neighbours
saw me, I still feel embaressed whenever I saw him as I really looked crazy 😀

For this eid, it’s very quiet … there were nearly no family visits as the family members have all conspired to get out of Cairo and leave us alone 😀
I also have to study as I am having a quiz next week. So that left me with one or two friends who haven’t travelled and 2e7sas el 2antakha home sweet home.

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